Monthly Archives: April 2014

Week 21

How far along: 21 weeks

How big is baby: The length of a carrot

Best moment of the week: It was ultrasound week, I would get in trouble if I said anything except that (plus, it was a crap week, so really, nothing could possibly come close). It was weird because the sonographers are not allowed to say anything that might be construed as a diagnosis, so all I know is that all of the body parts she showed us were indeed there, just not whether they’re healthy or not.  The spine makes her look like a fish, and the liquid orbs of eyeballs make her look like alien. But the nose is cute!

Food cravings: Coke floats.

Symptoms: Nausea. Fatigue. Weakness. Muscle soreness.

Gender: I feel like this little kid has my back… she refused to wake up and roll over to give the sonographer a peek (again, the sonographer wouldn’t be allowed to tell us anything, but we would have the option of knowing when we meet with my doctor to find out the results of the ultrasound report). I’m still thinking girl.

What I’m looking forward to: The weekend. I’ve been looking forward to it since Sunday.

What I miss: Me. I miss me. I always thought being pregnant would be a noble endeavour that would allow me to release some of my physical insecurities, embrace a changing body, and be overjoyed at the miracle I am capable of creating. Instead, I feel I have lost control of my body, my emotions and any self-confidence I had. If I’m not actively comparing myself to other pregnant women, I’m being actively compared to them by someone else, and I’m constantly feeling like I’m falling short. And as I’m constantly reminded: “if you think it’s bad now, it’s only going to get worse” (which is, for the record, currently topping my list of “things to never say to a pregnant woman” because it is the LEAST helpful piece of advice that only proves to make it that much harder to persevere through the rough patches. It’s right up there with “But it will be worth it in the end”… well yes, duh, but that really doesn’t make me feel any better at this very minute). I know I willingly agreed to get pregnant, I am excited to have a baby, and I feel damn lucky that there hasn’t been any serious issues along the way, but between the insecurity, the guilt, and heartburn that’s eating up my esophagus, it feels like there is no more room for me. And for that reason, I hate being pregnant. While there is a very real risk of opening myself up to accusations, judgements, and criticism, I also know there are many women out there who feel the same.

Husband perspective: Oh right! You want me to say something for that robot that lives on your pants (I think that he means my laptop). I like that the baby chews it’s own hand, so it shows that it’s thinking, but not too much. It shows I could likely outsmart it in a game of math.
These pants keep falling down
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Week 20

How far along: 20 weeks

How big is baby: the size of a banana

Best moment of the week: how massively happy the baby was (I assume squirms and kicks are signs of happiness) to get back home after a weekend away. I hear ya, baby!

Food cravings: Over the weekend: ham (which I got to eat plenty of… thanks Mom!) Now: fruit to counteract all the sodium.

Symptoms: Still the stupid nausea. And grumpiness.

Gender: Girl, but possibly because “baby girl” is a shorter nickname than “the wee baby Seamus” (reference). Scott’s been oscillating more than me. Yesterday it was a boy, today, it’s a girl.

What I’m looking forward to: All the awesome fresh produce we bought today. I am allowed one treat every time I go grocery shopping with Scott (yes, we resort to bribery in our house), and today, to compliment the mango for tomorrow’s mango lime chicken, the spinach for smoothies, the strawberries for snacks, I went with a pear.

What I miss: Taking compliments at face value. Now, a “you look so cute today” could mean “your belly is so cute” or “your outfit is so cute” or “you look cute despite your belly” or even “your outfit isn’t entirely appropriate for the situation but you can get away with it because you’re pregnant”. Yes, I miss my slightly less paranoid point of view.

Husband perspective: Banana? It’s more like a boomerang, and I can handle that. But when it gets spaghetti squash? Man, that thing has mass!!

Feeling like an elephant

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Week 19

How far along: 19 weeks pregnant

How big is baby: Mango. Apparently that’s bigger than a sweet potato? My local grocery store produce section begs to differ. Maybe heavier?

Best moment of the week: It’s been a boring week. The wee one was pretty active Friday which was fun, but very distracting when sitting in a performance review. Oh, and dancing up a storm to the Backstreet Boys as I was typing this up

Food cravings: This kid wanted coffee this week. I’ve never really picked up the coffee habit, so that was a weird one.

Symptoms: Some random nausea was back. That was unexpected and very lame.

Gender: Still girl. Maybe because my blog world hasn’t had a baby boy in a while. And there have been a lot of babies in the last few months!

What I’m looking forward to: a long weekend! (Not that we’re going to get anything accomplished)

What I miss: the ability to DO stuff. We discovered our basement shower has a couple of leaks that the previous owners ignored and so we have mould. Normally, discovering this on a Saturday afternoon would have meant spending the rest of the weekend demo-ing the wall. Instead, it meant arranging for a weekend for me to move in with my sister so Scott can demo the wall.
Husband perspective: We’re having a baby! And we’re going to call her hopscotch! And we’re going to play Legos!

Second Supper is Misleading

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Week 18

How far along: 18 weeks pregnant

How big is baby: Sweet potato (interesting, I was craving sweet potato fries earlier this week)

Best moment of the week: Saturday was pretty great: productive morning, epic afternoon nap, and date night to see The Lego Movie. If it wasn’t for the crappy night sleep that followed….

Food cravings: Those are dying down, it seems.

Symptoms: Round ligament pain and heartburn top the charts this week.

Gender: Still girl, but less emphatically.

What I’m looking forward to: Can this also go under “most apprehensive about”? We’re planning on hitting up some baby stores this weekend to see cribs etc.

What I miss: Mimosas.

Husband perspective: The baby is rather rude and should stop beating Cara up.

Thanks for the dress, Mom!

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Week 17

How far along: 17 weeks pregnant

How big is baby: Onion

Best moment of the week: Tie between hearing the heartbeat (relief!) and when Scott and the baby figured out that if Scott tickles my stomach, the baby “tickles” back.

Food cravings: Nothing significant or lasting.

Symptoms: Joint stiffness and pain. Oh, and airborne allergies. See pic of red nose.

Gender: Something about that heartbeat said “girl” and it’s just kind of stuck.

What I’m looking forward to: Actually making some progress on the house. One weekend of productivity (mostly on Scott’s part) and we’re just getting to the “fun” stuff.

What I miss: My jeans. Officially out of those now.

Husband perspective: I’m suddenly super excited for the stage where the baby lies on the floor and plays with things dangling over her

Red, Dry, Allergy Nose

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